No words can describe the level of tiredness I felt this past week due to chemo. It really did a number on me to the point that I had no desire for anything. Friends provided me some advice and I wanted to google it and figure some things out, did I have the energy? Nope. Imagine that, the energy of typing key words in google and hit enter and read. I had zero energy for that. Zero. Ziltch. Nada. All rounds expended on gun number 1.
From my last post to this now, I relied on family to feed me and take me to my doctors appointments. While in the car, I was resting, closing my eyes. At the clinics, I was resting, closing my eyes. When I was home, I was resting. And even when I tried to rest it was difficult. My body kept waking up every two hours! Why me!? But it was to clear the mucus around my trach so I understood. But it is not fun getting short clips of rest to say the least.
So today I am feeling a bit better, not as tired, with a bit more energy. Two more chemo treatments to go, I know I got this.
So what is up with radiation treatment? Well, for having throat cancer, I have had 6 radiation treatments, with 7 being later today. My throat feels rough. Thats the best way I can describe it. My tongue is on fire. I have zero taste buds and food taste like grey. I do have cravings, like say celery or carrots and peanut butter. Today, I would like some fried fish. Not a sandwich, just a simple fish fillet. But it is weird. My appetite at times is gone and then at times its like I can eat whats on the menu. All things in proportion.
All jokes aside, every doctor on my team always says for me to keep on swallowing because the fear is that I will stop. People who have undergone this treatment, lost their ability to swallow because they stopped. The radiation is that bad that it hurts to swallow. So I continue to hydrate, drink about 3 liters of water, and continue to eat when I can.
Thank you all for your support, prayers, kind thoughts, positive karma and well wishes.