I know it has been awhile since I posted and I will tell you that battling cancer is no joke. Your body changes and not just physically but also mentally. After treatment was complete, my body was still getting beat up by chemo and radiation and I didn’t accept it until about the 15th of April. That is when I noticed my body just like almost gave up. Physically, my body was drained. And at times, even as two weeks ago, I get that exhausted feeling where I have no energy nor desire to do anything.
Mentally, I have really no desire to rush into failure. I am taking my time in learning how to eat again. Right now it is only applesauce. That’s it, no other foods. Maybe a milkshake or a smoothie but not much else. I drink a lot of water because I miss drinking it and it does feel refreshing. I also had a small amount of Root Beer soda which burned a little but it was worth the carbonation. I will probably wait a month before I try that again.
My trach is out and the hole is slowly closing up. Part of my issue is that I want the hole to close up completely before I start focusing on eating. Prior to the doctors taking out the trach, my quality of life was miserable. I was coughing up a lot of phlegm. The day it came out, it was like a drop in production. I still cough up phlegm, just not as much. My only concern now are the blood clots that I cough up from time to time.
So, overall, I am happy where I am at in life. Taking little steps for total recovery. I don’t know when I will attain a full recovery but I will get there. As always, I thank you all for your good thoughts, prayers and warm wishes.